Thursday, 4 November 2021

In Loving Memory

 

It's been a truly horrible week. On Monday night, after becoming seriously ill at the weekend, we had to say goodbye to our beautiful boy, Frank. He had a tough start in life and the five short years we shared with him were full of love and happiness. We're utterly heartbroken. 





The card the emergency animal hospital gave us was signed with Frank's paw print, which completely destroyed me. 

We've been grateful for our garden. Being outside, sweeping up the never-ending cascades of leaves, planting bulbs and tidying up the pot plants, has been a welcome distraction although it's not the same without the ever-watchful green eyes of our precious boy, Stonecroft's unofficial supervisor.

 Jon drilled drainage holes in some of the souvenir clogs we'd acquired from charity shops & attached plate hooks to their backs and I planted them up with stuff dug up from elsewhere in the garden; Mexican fleabane, houseleeks and succulents. 


Being inside the house feels almost unbearable, we both keep catching a glimpse of Frank out of the corner of our eye, his presence is everywhere. Wandering around the charity shops for a couple of hours was another welcome distraction.

This week we've acquired a sage green poncho, a 1940s gents belted wool overcoat, a 1960s St Michael pyjama top, a 1980s Thai silk shirt, a 1980s Mandy Marsh midi dress, a 1970s lurex hooded disco top, a gents 1980s Versace-inspired shirt and a 1980s cotton casual shirt.


This lichen-coloured 1940s coat by Montague Burton came from the same home as the belted woollen overcoat and fits Jon a treat but he's got more coats than he knows what to do with so off to the Kinky Shed it goes. 

Reading is a wonderful way of keeping the sad thoughts away. I devoured this thriller in a matter of hours.


This pile of historical novels were all from the same shop and, no doubt, donated by the same person. I've been looking for Hilary Mantel's Bring Up The Bodies since it came out.



Talking of all things cultural, we saw The French Dispatch last Friday and it didn't disappoint. We went to the matinee performance at a depressingly ugly multiplex cinema chain in Dudley and only had to share the auditorium with six other people. Living in the hipster-free Black Country has its advantages.



We finally watched Tarantino's Once Upon a Time in Hollywood (which lived up to the hype) and started on Wolf Hall which we missed when it was first shown on the BBC back in 2015 as we were in India. We've finished the Scandi-Noir series When The Dust Settles, binge-watched the BBC's gripping crime drama Showtrial and are loving The Outlaws

The daily ritual of getting dressed continued. As mentioned in my last post, I don't have a seasonally specific wardrobe, I just layer up my trusty cotton dresses. I seem to be reaching for this 1960s suede coat, which I found in a charity shop three years ago, on a near-daily basis (I'd make a terrible fashion blogger). On Wednesday I wore it with a 1970s Ritu Kumar for Monsoon midi dress & Reiss wool fedora (both eBay), my 1960s-does-Edwardian leather lace-up boots (bought from a car boot sale over a decade ago) and an inherited silver pendant which my Grandma had made from one of her mother's silver buttons. The button's silver marks tell me that it was made by AJ Zimmerman of Birmingham in 1900.


Here's that coat again, this time worn over the Wyse, London dress I found in a charity shop a couple of months ago and my Toast cowboy boots (from eBay) when I went to the cinema last week - I also wore a scarf as the air-con can be ferocious in those places.



Although I've not been commenting, reading what my virtual (and real-life) blog friends have been up to has been a real comfort. Sheila and Goody dressed up spooktacularly for Halloween, Betty carved an amazing pumpkin and Claire shared some scary stories & photos. Mim wrote about the original Bram Stoker's Dracula film, Jem went for an Autumnal ramble and Kezzie, once again, proves she's the queen of Dr Who cosplay. Sam wrote a touching post to mark her daughter's 31st birthday and Cherie and Aril attended gorgeously quirky weddings. Monica , Beate, Vronni, Jill and Ann wowed me with their wardrobes, Ratnamurti shared her thoughts on Springtime chic and Ivana returned to Blogland after taking a break. Lulu shared photos of her gorgeous Cornish garden, Lynn visited an incredible textile exhibition in a stately home and Jayne's weather watchers photo was shown on the BBC lunchtime news. 


Another of my favourite bloggers, Cheapchick, died on 22nd October after an 18 month battle with pancreatic cancer (which also claimed my Mum). Although we'd never met, we'd bonded over our love of travel, followed each other's blogs for years and chatted regularly on Facebook. Before we went to Rhodes she'd asked me to have a Greek Salad and Mythos on her behalf (she and Dave loved their time in Greece) and I was able to message her & tell her that we did just that.  The picture above was the last thing she posted on Facebook and despite her terminal diagnosis, I know she made the most of every minute. A truly inspirational woman. RIP Tammy.


If you're wondering about this fella, 16-year-old Stephen Squirrel, he doesn't seem to have noticed that he's now Stonecroft's sole feline, he's still terrorising any dog that passes the house, rounding up the postman and scrapping with Kitty, Frank's pretty girlfriend from next-door. 

See you soon. x



63 comments:

  1. You wrote so touchingly of the lads presence in your lives during all that time we were in lockdown. As a family we agreed that having Humphrey here was one of the things that kept us sane and stress levels down. This is the horrible side to pet owing, but think what a quality of life you brought to Frank's after his tough start and he to yours. I'd still rather go through the pain of losing them them not have had them in my life in the first place....love to both of youxx Arilx

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  2. Vix, I am so sorry about Frank. I've had six cats and had to put five down when it was time, and it has sucked *every*single*time*. My sympathy to you, Lord Jon, and (even if they seem oblivious thus far) Stephen and Jacob.

    And thanks also for letting us know about Cheapchick. A brave and beautiful soul she was--and it was through her blog that I found yours. RIP.

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  3. My heart aches for you and my eyes are too teary to watch the rest of your blog. It will wait. Dear, sweet Frank. I never imagine anyone or creature will die so it is always a shock. However you gave him the best 5 years anyone could hope for. So my love goes out to you both. I can only imagine how you are feeling. How I loved photos of him in your garden. He was the sweetest petal in it. ♥️ xxx

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  4. I am so sorry, Vix. Reading this whole post, I realized my cheeks were wet, and tears were dripping. From losing your pet, one of your boys, to your sharing your Mythos and Greek salad for Tammy, my heart hurts with you. Thank you for reading my post to my daughter-she's had a challenging few years battling depression and heartbreak, so having others know about her tremendous soul was a comfort to her. I love popping around your blog readers blog and seeing their lives-you have the best blog world friends. We all should never underestimate, never under appreciate all pieces of our lives. I'm sure Stephen Squirrel will get a few more love pats, an extra cheeky treat, as he should, but Frank is sure to be there at least in your heart.

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  5. I am so sorry to hear this about Frank. He will live in your heart forever, and the stories of his adventures will live on, also.

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  6. They leave such a hole in your heart and in your life - my heart aches for you too - sending hugs and purrs xxx

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  7. I wondered where you were-So very sorry Vix and Jon-our beloved animals that share our lives just don't live as long as we want-but Frank lived the most Wonderful Happy life with you both-safe with you forever in your hearts xxxxxxx

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  8. My heart hurts for you. It never gets easier, does it? But rest easy...he had a wonderful time chez Stonecroft and we all enjoyed that time thru' your writing and photos. Big hugs, Zoë xx

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  9. Oh Vix ... I cried when I read your post on Facebook and I cried again when I read your blog post, in particular when I saw Frank's paw print. Having lost Phoebe not all too long ago, the heartache is still fresh and I remember feeling her presence and seeing her out of the corner of our eyes so very well. Gardening, reading and charity shopping are all great distractions to get you through those first couple of weeks. Sending the biggest of virtual hugs to you and Jon xxx

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  10. Dear Vix and Jon, oh I am so sorry to hear of Frank passing. I am such a cat lover, also, I know what ya'll are going thru at this time. I don't have children either and know how attached we get to our pets and how hard it is when they go. Following your site for several years now, I love Frank, Stephen Squirrel and Jacob, ya'll loved him so much and gave to him a quality life, home and love. He and your beautiful memories will be in your hearts forever. Thinking of you.

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  11. sadly missed , but can you still feel him hanging around .

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  12. Oh no.
    So sorry to hear about your lovely boy, Frank and your pal, Tammy.
    No words; much love xx

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  13. Oh Vix I'm so sorry to hear that you have lost Frank. I loved hearing about the boys who always looked so contented with you both. I'm sure you will catch sight of him in the house and in his garden where he will continue to be, probably why Stephen Squirrel isn't too lost he will know Frank is still around i'm sure.Love and hugs to you both, Shelagh XX

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  14. So so sorry to hear about Frank, Vix. As you know we had to have our beloved Susie put to sleep back in April so I know how heartbreaking it is to lose a pet. How very sad as well about Tammy, I used to read her blog now and then. A very hard week for you xx

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  15. Oh no, I am so sorry to hear about Frank! I always love hearing about your pets! Also sorry to hear about Tammy as well - I have read that blog now and then too. My condolences to you & Jon on Frank - he will be missed by you so much and condolences to Tammy's family as well.

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  16. Very sorry for the los of your lovely Frank. What a very well loved 5 years he had in your magical garden, no cat (or anyone, really) could ask for better. Xxxxxx

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  17. So sad! So brutal to loose our fury friends.

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  18. Awh we know exactly how you’re both feeling and it’s not good. Sending all our love. It’s easy to say it’ll get easier but it doesn’t really help right now. Big hugs and love from is both xxx

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  19. I knew something was going on and I was worried and I am so sorry to hear of Franks passing on. Sharing my home with cats most of my life, I have experienced the heartache that you are going through and your post brought tears to my eyes. I am so sorry and I can only send love and peace to you and Jon and Stephen, once he realizes his dynamic has changed. Ranee (MN) USA

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  20. So sorry to hear about Frank. It's truly heartbreaking when we have to say goodbye to our beloved pets. He had a wonderful life with you and Jon and was dearly loved for sure. Sending you lots of love. xxx

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    1. I can't say it better than this, so I would just like to echo Diana's words. Heather

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  21. Dear Vix, I was wondering if you were ok, and now I'm so sorry!, it's so heartbreaking!. Sending you love!
    Hope you can keep yourselves distracted, I think it helps to go through the really bad times.
    besos & abrazos

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  22. Hi Vix, I had noticed your absence in blogland and knew something must be amiss - I am so sorry that you have said goodbye to Frank. I know only too well how the sadness creeps up on you, how overwhelming it can be at times to not have that little friend by your side, I still miss Amber. Frank would have left this world knowing 100% how much you both loved him. I hope in the coming days and weeks you will feel at peace with his parting.

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  23. My heart aches for you and Jon. Good to see that Stephen Squirrel has Kitty Next Door to provide companionship -- but one hopes that the "vacancy open" sign cats seem to post on such occasions will be noted in due time.

    I, too, have lost friends this year to both Covid and cancer. Thanks for sharing your friend's poignant post, Vix. I urge you to look out Elaine Stritch's performance of "I'm still here!" for Sondheim's 80th birthday gala. She changed some lines: "I got through last year -- and I'm still here. That was there -- and I am here!" My theme for 2022.

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  24. I’m so sorry to hear about Frank, Vix. All my love and best wishes to you and Jon.

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  25. Oh, Vix...I'm sobbing over here and squeezing Vizzini for comfort. I know how horrible it is to lose one of your lads, and I still see both Othello and Inigo lurking in the corners of my eyes. Frank will always have a special place in my heart - I love both of your lads, and I'm glad Stephen isn't suffering any trauma from losing his comrade. Much love to you and Frank's "dad" Jon, who had such a deep bond with his boy, spoiling him with prawns.

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  26. Run Free Frank!

    Our Collie crossed the Bridge on October 15 at age 15.5. He likes cats and will show Frank a good time.

    Cherish your memories.

    Those little paws steal huge chunks of our hearts.

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  27. Sorry that you lost your buddy Frank. What a grand life he had with you, and tears have been shed around the world.

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  28. I'm so sorry to hear of your sad loss Vix. He was a truly beautiful cat and he's obviously left paw prints all over your heart.

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  29. I'm sorry about your lost of "Frank". I didn't know Cheap Trick pass. I once stop at her blog.
    Coffee is on and stay safe

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  30. So sorry to read this, they break you heart.

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  31. I'm so very sorry to read you've lost your gorgeous boy, Frank. Sending lots of love and hugs. Xx

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  32. My darling, I am so sorry. There is absolutely nothing I've ever experienced which hurts so much, which rips your soul into pieces.

    Knowing how much he was loved and the wonderful life you gave him will, in time, be some consolation for you, but right now there's just pain. Thinking of you both. xxx

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  33. I am so sorry about Frank you gave him a good and loving home. You should be proud of that. He will be heading towards our special cat shrine we have here in Tokyo which is just for cats.
    He can go and play or watch the other cats now, knowing he is not alone in heaven.
    RIP to Tammy. I used to read her blog and I wanted it not to happen to her, it happens to all the good ones.
    It’s been an awful year for me to but at least you can see your families graves and attend their funerals I have not and it breaks my heart. That I only have a photo to remember bill Paul’s dad by. Love and. Hugs thinking of you both

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  34. frank <3
    we of BWH think of you at stonecroft. frank - who came to you on its own, knowing he will be loved - was such a lovely compagnon. we will miss him too.
    i knewed that someting is wrong, missing your posts......
    you both are brave and know the comfort of a good dose of work. but of cause there will be an empty spot.......
    virtual hugs to you!!! xxxxx

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  35. I was so sorry to see about Frank on FB. You gave him a lovely life when you took him in, and he repaid that with masses of love. Cats know good people, and they do leave a mark on your heart. Lots of love toyou and Jon.

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  36. Terribly sorry to hear about Frank. He lived his best life with you both.My Bestie was taken with pancreatic. It's the cruelest disease.Stay well.xxx

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  37. So sorry for the loss of Frank. I bet the 5 years of happiness with you and Jon made up for his rough start and I bet he died happy.

    Loved the button pendant; what a fab idea and planted up clogs seems a genius idea!

    Fab outfits and great finds. That man's belted overcoat reminded me of early childhood so much...
    xxx

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  38. Oh Vix I am so sorry for your sad loss. That paw print card had me iin tears. I know how much it hurts to lose a much loved pet and also your friend, Tammy. Sending lots of love to you.
    XX

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  39. Dear Vix, Other than for my work on Instagram I have taken a much needed step away from social media. I still read and enjoy all of your blogs and when I read this one I had to tell you how sorry I am to near of Frank's passing. The loss of your lovely lad must be heartbreaking and I just wanted to send you my love, Sally xxx

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  40. It may be the last act of loving kindness we can do for our animals, but it's so hard. I wish they lived as long as we do, and I'm so very sorry for your loss.
    Like you, I also lost a facebook friend a couple of weeks ago and we'd never met in person either, but I was immensely fond of her. When I heard the news I'd just spent the most joyful weekend in Bristol attending an old friend's wedding and connecting with so many others I hadn't seen since the pandemic kicked off. On the journey home I learned by text that my other friend had passed quietly in her sleep. It came as a physical jolt to the heart and the quote your late friend shared really resonated with me.

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  41. Vix, I am so sorry to read your beloved Frank has passed away. Sending you and Jon hugs and love.
    I didn’t realize Tammy had passed away. I too have read her blog for years and was hopeful she was doing ok after her last post a couple months ago. Thank you for sharing that.
    Take care.❤️❤️
    Robin

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  42. I'm so sorry for your loss of Frank. My heart aches for you. It's always so painful when pets leave us, but they give us so much joy. It's wonderful that Frank had such loving parents to care for him and give him the beautiful life he deserved after such a tough start in life. I'll miss seeing the pics of him hanging out in the garden and around your home. Much love to you, Jon, Stephen Squirrel and Jacob.

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  43. Oh Vix, I am so sorry to hear of your handsome Frank, and also the news of your brave blogger friend Tammy. I found it very moving that the animal hospital did a paw print for you. Sticky prints are precious. Big, big love and hugs to you and Jon (...and Frank's pretty girlfriend). Lulu xXxXxXx

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  44. I'm so sorry to hear you have lost Frank. It must be so hard. Saying goodbye to a pet is always heart-breaking, they are practically family. I'm sure Frank treasured the lovely home you gave him after all his troubles. The pawn print on the card...a sweet memory. Maybe a bittersweet one, but so are all memories. I don't know how cats perceive loss, maybe Stephen will start to miss Frank after a while.
    I'm very sorry to hear about Tammy, she sounds like an amazing woman. Sad news.
    I started watching Once Upon a Time in Hollywood but gave it up after the Bruce Lee scene because it seemed very unkind to him. The poster for Wolf Hall looks familiar. It's possible that I watched parts of it. I'm terrible at starting films and series and never finishing it. I'm much better with books, I almost always finish them. That's a nice stack of books. Reading is a great way to distract ourselves, I tend to read more when I'm sad, tired or stressed.

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  45. Dear Vix, I have not been visiting blogs lately and had an urgent calling to check in on Vix world - I am glad I did to send you a big hug. Your handsome boy is captured forever in your beautiful photos. I reckon you & Jon deserve an extra tipple tonight. I see you have lost none of your creativity (the clogs as wall planters)and you still always look fab. Sorry Vix again and sorry for not checking in lately I have had some health issues but am back on top now. I may not have been visiting as regularly but you still are appreciated for how you got so many of us through these bazaar times. lots of love Shazxx

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  46. I'm so sorry. Frank was a lovely boy and you and Jon gave him such a good life. I didn't know your blogger friend Tammy, but losing friends is always hard. Sending you lots of love.

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  47. Sorry to hear about cheapchick, she looked like a lovely person. And sorry to hear about your Frank..he was a frequent presence. You provided a wonderful home for him.

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  48. What a bitch of a time it's been for you. Sad. xxxxxxxxxxxx And amazingly you had time to read my humble blog xx (thank you).

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  49. What a horrible, horrible week you have had. That paw print in the card wow that's lovely but also heartbreaking. I'm so glad you were able to give Frank the wonderful 5 years full of love that you did. xxxx

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  50. I am so sorry. I don't think I've commented before, but I enjoy your posts very much, as clothes and cats are passions of mine. Frank was a lovely boy! Especially when cats come to us later in their lives, it's hard to get enough time with them.

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  51. So sorry to hear about your beloved Frank. Always such a sad time losing a beloved pet.

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  52. Vix, I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your dear Frank. I love reading about the adventures of Frank and Stephen (and Jacob) and seeing this post brought tears to my eyes. I glanced over at my darling Sylvester, and imagined how it would feel if I lost him (I have had him for five years too). You have my heartfelt sympathy.

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  53. I am so sorry to hear about Frank, and about Tammy. What a terrible week. My condolences to you xx

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  54. That was very sweet of you to mention me.
    I really am sorry about your darling Frank. We will also miss seeing him lording it over the Stonecroft estate. That card from the Vets- my heart! I am glad you have had things to keep you busy.xx

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  55. I'm a little late here, just now I read the so sad message about Frank. Frank, our all beloved blogger cat. How I loved to see his little fur face between the garden green. Vix and Jon, heartfelt condolences for your loss.
    We still mourning our boy Filou, gone at Dec. 27, last year. It hurts. Sometimes, like a little wind, the grief comes to us and we only look to each other and, without a word, we know what we think about.
    Take care of yourselfs, do what do well to you!
    Big hug from Cologne,
    Susa

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  56. Dear Vix and Jon, so sorry to hear of the sad and sudden passing of Frank . How kind of the vets to place a paw print on the card , something to treasure. xxx












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  57. My belated condolences on your Loss of Dear Frank. I have Guests in the room with my computer so got behind in reading everyone's Blogs while we have this room occupied. The Footprint is a Wrecker, even when my Grandson's Chameleon Ivara crossed over, they put her Footprint in Claw for us and I completely lost it emotionally... and she didn't even Like me! *Smiles* Stephen Squirrel is a Grand Old Man.

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  58. Oh my goodness, heartbreaking news about Frank. Our cat lived to over 20, they leave such a gap in our homes & lives don't they. I love the card with the paw print, what a delightful gesture. Lots of love, Jayne xx

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