After 17 years together, we had to say goodbye to our beloved Stephen Squirrel on Monday. Five months ago our hearts were broken when we lost Frank, now they're smashed into a million pieces. RIP beautiful boy.
Life goes on but, at the moment, it feels like we're simply going through the motions. We've done some nice things like planning for our next trip, going for an early morning swim and treating ourselves to breakfast in Spoons, Eggs Benedict for Jon and the vegetarian alternative, Mushrooms Benedict, for me.
We both sought solace in a bit of shopping. This secondhand embroidered blouse (originally Zara) caught my eye, the cotton is so crisp I can hear it crinkle when I move and feels Spring-like even if the weather is anything but.
Jon's found three pairs of cropped cotton trousers (including Zara & David Beckham for H&M), a vintage Camel Trophy leather wallet and a 1970s tooled leather belt, I've snaffled a cropped TopShop military jacket, a Danish-made chambray midi skirt, a Yasmin Le Bon necklace (from her 2009 collection for Wallis) and a straw & raffia bag, handmade in Madagascar for a street childrens charity.
We've also found a few goodies for festivals and the eBay shop, including a 1980s Laura Ashley linen jacket, a 1970s Ladies Pride maxi, a Miss Selfridge duster, some Clarks sandals, a deconstructed & studded silk jacket from Brazil, a Fiorucci suede blazer, a Marks and Spencer leather jacket, a Lambretta Harrington and a Christian Lacroix wool mini skirt which stood out like a beacon from the high street synthetics occupying the rest of the rails.
I wasn't looking forward to getting up on Tuesday morning, the first time in 17 years I'd not been accompanied by Stephen but something really odd happened, I got downstairs and discovered a cat waiting for me on the doorstep. He came in, made polite conversation, had cuddles, belly rubs and cat treats, explored the kitchen, middle room and lounge, dozed on the doormat and left an hour later.
Mr Trousers is frequent sight on the avenue but he's always kept his distance until now. We think he's the boss of the cat colony in the old windmill, he's obviously used to people but his matted fur points to him not being owned.
Ollie is getting braver although never allows us near enough to touch him. He's currently sheltering from yet another torrential downpour underneath Gilbert and tucking into his fourth dinner of the day.
See you soon. xxx
Oh Vix - my heart aches for you - they leave such a huge hole for such small creatures - sending hugs and love xx
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, Kate. xxx
DeleteVix, so very sorry to hear about Stephen Squirrel. It really is heart-breaking to have to say goodbye to our beloved pets. I know it's small consolation but he really did have a wonderful life and gave and received so much love. Thinking of you both and sending you lots of love and hugs. xxx
ReplyDeleteThanks, Diana. xxx
DeleteI hope Mr Trousers and Ollie are providing some comfort and distraction. It's tough at the best of times, but to have two losses within 6 months is devastating. I love all of your charity shop keepers, particularly that midi skirt - it's a lovely shape and so versatile! xxx
ReplyDeleteThanks, Claire. I can vouch for Barry M's mascara, it hasn't budged despite all the tears! I saw that skirt last week and dithered about it all week, I'm not sure why, it's lovely on. xxx
DeleteMy heart breaks for you, sending so much love. I'm just a casual blog reader but my god, I feel your pain. We lost our gorgeous girl at the start of the pandemic and she still has the power to have me in floods of tears. They really do worm their way right to the middle of your heart, don't they? They both obviously boasted to the local cats of their lovely home and excellent servants given the visitors you're getting.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for commenting, Emily. I'm so sorry you lost your precious girl. I still get upset when I think of Polly, who we lost five years ago, it never gets any easier does it but the joy they bring is worth the pain when they leave us. xxx
DeleteI'm so sorry Vix. Sending virtual love and hugs. How did those cats know you needed them to pay visits? For those who believe in heaven, it has to be filled with animals.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much, Sam. There's a saying I found, "Heaven will never be Paradise unless my cats are there waiting for me". xxx
DeleteDarling girl, I am so desperately sorry and I know what this sort of heartbreak feels like. There is absolutely nothing which hurts so much - they take over our hearts and then break them. But in 17 years Mr Stephen had the most incredible life with you and I am sure he appreciated his staff. xx 💚 🐾
ReplyDeleteThere is no grief unless first there was love, so much love.
As for Mr Trousers and Oliver - it will be interesting to see how that story unfolds.
Thanks so much, Jayne. I know you understand the pain from losing beautiful Daisy.
DeleteI adore your words on grief.
There's a couple more cats sniffing around, too - it's rather uncanny but very conforting to get some random cat love. xxx
We understand from personal experience and we are very sorry!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much, VC. xxx
DeleteHow heartbreaking to have to say goodbye to both your gorgeous boys, and in such a short space of time, too. Indeed, life goes on, but I well remember just going through the motions when we lost Phoebe that year. I'm glad to hear you found solace in a bit of shopping and treating yourselves to breakfast, and surely there's nothing like making travel plans to take your minds off things!
ReplyDeleteIt's nothing short of a miracle that Mr. Trousers turned up on your doorstep when he did, and that Ollie seems to be getting braver is wonderful news! Take care, you two! xxx
Thanks so much, Ann. I think it'll be a long time before I can look back on old blog posts without crying. Its impossible to concentrate on anything at the moment.
DeleteJules Verne said something about "cats being spirits come to earth", the way Mr Trousers just walked in and demanded to be cuddled yesterday confirmed that! xxx
Vix, I came by today to wish you and Jon well for your Not-an-Anniversary, to find this news of Stephen. It is such a gut punch. Much love to you both. -Karen-
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for the not-an-anniversary well wishes, Karen. From a high to a low in the space of a few days. xxx
DeleteOh Vix so, so sorry to hear about Stephen - it's so hard when we have to say goodbye to a beloved pet. Big hugs xx
ReplyDeleteThanks so much, Emma. I know you know how painful it is. xxx
DeleteVix, I am so sorry. That first morning is so hard. Mr. Trousers knew you needed some company.
ReplyDeleteThank so much, cat Lover. Mr Trousers' kindness made that first morning without Stephen a little sweeter. Cats really do have a sixth sense, knowing we were in need of comfort. xxx
DeleteI will be giving my furry family some extra hugs and treats today in memory of Stephen. I'm so glad the neighborhood kitties took time to give you some love and solace during this sad time. The loss of any pet is difficult, the loss of one that has stolen your heart, like yours did, is even harder. You gave them both your best and they were very fortunate to have been a part of your family and they know that too. Ranee (MN) USA
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your kind words, dear Ranee. Please give your furry family an extra cuddle from Jon and I. I know Stephen and Frank helped a lot of my virtual friends through lockdown. xxx
DeleteVix and Jon-Stephen will always be safe within your heart xx
ReplyDeleteThanks for those beautiful words, dear Flis.xxx
DeleteLovely Vix, so sorry about Stephen. Indeed most animals have sixth sense and it is beautiful that you had a visit from another lovely feline on the very first and hard morning! Mr Trousers - love that name. You have looked after your boys so well and in time you will be able to look back on all the beautiful pics. Extra hugs tonight for you and Jon. love Shazxx
ReplyDeleteThanks so much, dear Shaz. Mr Trousers came just when we needed him. I wonder if he'll be back or if he'll go back to ignoring us now he's worked his magic. xxx
DeleteI do feel very sad for you both Vix. Good that those little strays know they are welcome though xxx
ReplyDeleteI know you'll understand what we're going through, Betty, thank you.
DeleteOur door is always open for strays, I'm sure it won't be too long until someone claims us. xxx
dear vix and jon - i´m so very sorry to hear the sad news about stephen!
ReplyDeletelisbeth and i will miss him too.
but then mr.trousers came to visit! i´m sure he knew you was in need for some cat love. and there is olli.... cats are incredible creatures.
and the 2.hand gods were gracious - fabulous clothes and accessories - the blue zara blouse looks beautiful on you!
much love! xxxx
Thanks, Beate. We miss him desperately.
DeleteCats are such wise creatures though, aren't they? Mr Trousers turning up like that, as if he knew I needed company on my first morning without Stephen.
Zara make some beautiful embroidered clothes and I'm happy to wait for them to turn up secondhand. xxx
So sad...., but both let their legacy with the new fellas...RIP
ReplyDeleteThanks, Mariel. The door - and our hearts - are open for the new fellas, should they want a home. xxx
DeleteThat beautiful boy was very loved. So sorry for your loss. Heather x
ReplyDeleteHe really was, we couldn't have loved him more. Letting him go was the hardest decision. Thanks you so much, Heather. xxx
DeleteA heartbreak like no other
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry
You are all much in my thoughts
Siobhan
Thanks so much, Siobhan. xxx
DeleteOh sweetie, I am sorry. We lost two of our boys within months of each other. One 17 and the other 18. It was so hard. But then I went and adopted twin sisters, Shadow and Shade. Mom was still alive and living with us and she told me I could not get another cat and then I came home with two. I am a twin and I just could not split them up I renamed then Shim and Shay, after my twin and myself Kim and Kay. The little shits went right into mom's bedroom and started to shred paper under her bed. They knew she did not like them. But she thought that the fast that they were there to irritate her was so funny, just like Kay and I. Losing a beloved pet is very difficult, take extra care of your soul.
ReplyDeleteOh Kim, that story did make me smile. I love that you adopted twins and they tormented your mum for not wanting them so soon. Much love to you. xxx
DeleteI'm so sorry. He was a lovely boy, and you gave him such a good life.
ReplyDeleteThank you, J. xxx
DeleteOh I am so sorry to hear this Vix, sending love and best wishes (from a long time reader) x
ReplyDeleteThanks so much, Rachel. So sweet of you to comment. xxx
DeleteOh, honey, I am so very, very sorry to hear of your dear Stephen Squirrel's passing. You and Jon are such devoted cat-people, you must be heartbroken not to have the yowls, purrs and clack of claws about the place. And so soon after losing Frank...that just sucks. Sending you the biggest good vibes I have. {{{{{VIX}}}}}
ReplyDeleteI would have snagged that Lacroix skirt in a heartbeat! The good stuff stands out!
Thanks so much, Sheila, your kind thoughts mean so much. We'd always tell Stephen off for being noisy, its far too quiet and empty now.
DeleteI thought of you when I spotted the Lacroix, the lining is almost as groovy as the exterior. xxx
Oh, I too am SO sorry to hear of your loss, especially so soon after the last one. I cried buckets when my first two cats died, and have ever since with the others I've had. It's a wonderful sign that your new visitor was on your doorstep the first morning you are alone ... maybe he will lift your spirits a bit. Hugs from New Zealand.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much, Deejay. It never gets any easier losing a beloved pet, does it? Finding that lovely boy on our doorstep on Tuesday was such a wonderful distraction. xxx
DeleteSo sorry that you have had to say goodbye to Stephen Squirrel, you gave him the best life. I lost my 18 year old boy Otto two weeks ago, it is heartbreaking and they leave the biggest hole, but they are still near us in spirit even though we can't see them.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry about your darling boy, Otto. Thank you for being so kind and leaving such a thoughtful comment. xxx
DeleteSorry to hear about Stephen. They leave massive paw prints on our hearts.
ReplyDeleteI think that Stephen may have sent his furry friends to keep you company.
Thank you. I think you're right, cats have an uncanny knack of turning up just at the right time. xxx
DeletePlease accept my condolences on the loss of Stephen Squirrel. No doubt dear old Polly is now getting an update on all the household news, including descriptions of the feline fellas now applying for positions at the vacant bowls at Stonecroft. Seventeen is a great age for a cat, Vix. Stephen enjoyed all 9 of his lives in a place of comfort and love.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much, Beth. Yes, Stephen will be updating Polly with all the news. He had a long and happy life, it would have been wrong to have made him suffer. xxx
DeleteMy Stephen rest in peace.
ReplyDeleteCoffee is on and stay safe
Thanks, Dora. I could do with that coffee. xxx
DeleteI'm so very sorry to read about your darling Stephen. Your heart must be in bits right now. He had a loving home with you and Jon. Xx
ReplyDeleteThanks so much, Jules xxx
DeleteSo sorry to read about Stephen,it`s heartbreaking when it`s time for them to go. Funny about Mr Trousers (great name!) turning up just when you needed it, cats always know!
ReplyDeleteMuch love to you and Jon xx
Thank you, Sarah. Cats are very strange creatures,I haven't seen Mr trousers since but his compnay on Tuesday morning was so wonderful. xxx
DeleteHi Vix and Jon,
ReplyDeletemaybe this poem can give you comfort, maybe. I hope!
Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there; I did not die.
(M. E. Frye)
Hugs to you from Cologne,
Susa
Hello Susa. thank you so much for those beautiful words. Much love to you from Vix & Jon xxx
Deletei'm so sorry about your baby stephen. maybe stephen sent mr. trousers to give you some comfort. i'm a cat mamma to a rescue named smoochy. they do leave a terrible void when they go.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much, Leigh. Sending both you and Smoochy (what a sweet name!) lots of love. xxx
DeleteSending loving thoughts and our sympathies to you and Jon on the sad loss of Stephen Squirrel.
ReplyDeleteWe lost one of our kittybabes at the age of fifteen, and her litter sister at the ripe old age of twenty one.
Both Frank and Stephen (my husband is Stephen, his father was named Frank) were blessed to have had their lives with you, they could not have been more loved and you were loved in return.
When we said goodbye to our last Kittybabe, our Vet sent us this...
“Grieve not, nor speak of me with tears, but laugh and talk of me as if I were beside you..I loved you so — ’twas Heaven here with you.”
X
Hello Col, I'm so sorry to hear about your kittybabes, too. It's heartbreaking when they leave us but those years of love are worth the pain. The words the vet spoke brought more tears to my eyes, how powerful.
DeleteWhat a coincidence that your husband is Stephen and his father was Frank. Much love to you. xxx
Oh Vix, my heart cries for your loss...I know your pain so well. We had to say goodbye to our beloved cat Maurice 6 weeks ago and it is impossible to find any consolation. Stephen and Frank imprinted your heart with their soft paws forever as Maurice did with mine. I'm sending you and Jon my love and the biggest hugs ever xxxx
ReplyDeleteOh Daisy, I'm so sorry to hear about Maurice and that you're going through the same heartbreak as we are. Thank you so much for your kind words and sending you lots of love, too. xxx
DeleteThank you, Vix. It is heartbreaking, you're right. Sorry, I wanted to write a longer reply, but every time I write or speak about Maurice I burst into tears. When someone says "oh, it was ONLY a cat" I could murder. No, he was my fur baby. Sweet natured boy who never did anything wrong. So was your Stephen and Frank.
DeleteYes, Daisy, your lovely Maurice and our boys were far more than "just a cat", they were companions and brought us so much joy and comfort especially over these last two years of lockdown. One day you, Jon and I will look at photos and enjoy the memories of the times we shared but its too raw at the moment. Take care. xxx
DeleteHow very sorry I am to hear about your lovely black and white boy. The void that our animals leave is unfathomable. Be kind to yourselves xxxxxx
ReplyDeleteThanks so much, Elaine. xxx
DeleteMr. Trousers knew you needed some feline comfort right now. I am so, so sorry to hear of the loss of your dear Stephen Squirrel. 17 years is a long time to share your heart with an animal, but it's never long enough, is it? And coming so soon after Frank's passing makes it just too much sorrow to handle. Sending you a hug, and my deepest sympathy for your loss.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much, Shelley. Mr Trousers visit was very much appreciated, its uncanny how he knew that we needed the company of a cat on that first morning without Stephen Squirrel. xxx
DeleteTerribly sorry to hear about Stephen Squirrel. I think his spirit lives on in Doorstep Cat who certainly looks like he could be king of the castle!xxx
ReplyDeleteThank you so much. Mr Trousers is a massive beast, I hope he calls around again. xxx
DeleteOh I am so sorry to hear this; Frank and Stephen Squirrel were a treat to read about on your blogs and I know they were a big part of your 'family'; it is always so sad to lose our beloved pets - they really are family! Thinking of you and Jon missing your buddies. Dawn Pinnataro, Albany GA, USA
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your knid words, dawn. Sending love from Walsall to Albany. xxx
DeleteI'm so sorry to hear about Stephen Squirrel. We lost our Rocky cat of 19 years in December and it's so heartbreaking. Sometimes I think I see him out of the corner of my eye hanging out in his favorite places. It's lovely that Mr. Trousers came for a friendly visit. Stephen might have sent him to comfort you. Maybe someday Ollie will let you pet him. You and Jon were such awesome parents to Stephen and Frank. I'll miss seeing pictures of them enjoying themselves in the garden and around your house. Sending you and Jon much love and light.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much, Cheryene. I'm so srry to hear about Rocky. Like you, we keep seeing Stephen and Frank out of the corner of our eyes. xxx
Deleteoh Vix, I'm so sorry about Stephen Squirrel. Your hearts will be broken, of course they will but remember that memory is the ship that love sails on. The lads will be out and about in the garden, and snuggling in the house when it's cold and wet just as they always did. Wasn't it kind of Stephen to send Mr Trousers to comfort his Mam? Maybe Ollie will take his place in your home now it's maybe his turn. Fingers crossed. Take care both of you xx
ReplyDeleteThanks so much, Shelagh. It is very strange how Mr Trousers turned up when he did, he's been back again a couple of times this week, he has no interest in food but just wants to give us lots of love and affection, it is most welcome. xxx
DeleteDearest Vix,
ReplyDeleteMy sincerest condolences. My cat of 20 years passed last year, and I was just thinking about her this morning. As you know, cats will come to you when you least expect it, and that is a gift -- as is the time you spent with S. Squirrel.
I also feel very confident that you will further tame Ollie. I have a formerly feral, now indoors-only house cat. It took about three years to have her accustomed to house living, but we got there in the end.
Thinking of you.
Hello, Mei. Thank you for your kind words and I'm so sorry to hear about your lovely girl. Ollie actually ventured inside the house yesterday but soon scuttled off when we got too close. xxx
DeleteOh no, Stephen is gone. I'll miss seeing him on blog. I'm so sorry for your loss. I didn't know of it until I opened this post, I've been away from the blogging world.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much, Ivana. I hope your break was a happy one. xxx
DeleteAww your boys must have needed to be together. Your home must feel quiet without sweet Stephen to come home too. Bug hugs to you both.
ReplyDeleteJulie and poppyq
Thanks so much, Julie & Poppy. xxx
DeleteI am so sorry to hear about Stephen, RIP beautiful boy. xx
ReplyDeleteIt would seem that he's sent someone to check up on you to make sure you are coping in his absence, its strange how these things happen isn't it.
Thanks, Sue! xxx
DeleteWe lost our two cats within six months of each other from different types of cancer. It's a crushing experience but does get easier with time. Sending you kind wishes,
ReplyDeleteJulie
Thanks so much for your kind words, Julie. I hope your sadness has eased. xxx
DeleteHello Vix, I am so sorry to hear you had to say goodbye to your little fluffy buddy Stephen Squirrel (and so sorry I am terribly behind on blog reading!). Strange that Mr Trousers should arrive the next morning for some cat loving - but they say cats sense these things. Sending big Cornish pasty cyber hugs to you xXxXx
ReplyDeleteThanks so much, Lulu. Those Cornish pasty hugs are very welcome. xxx
DeleteI am so sorry about your beloved feline companion! Glad that your local stray friend seemed to know you needed some company!
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